Sunday, October 20, 2013

It's only a Dream....



  Like most nights, i can remember at least one or two segments of dreaming that goes on in my head when i wake up from sleep. That was just a dream... Sometimes i have to tell myself that every day...sometimes all day because it was that effective of alterating my thoughts and creating a strange mood for me to sit in all day...

It's true, the more you record/write down your dreams right away once you wake up, it does improve your ability to remember more or think back. I find myself having deja vu moments frequently. Kind of like yesterday while i was on break at work in the back making myself a cup of tea... Little things like remembering i have been here doing this before... but that is not possibly as i have only worked there a couple weeks. Its so interesting to have that feeling. I've learned to really appreciate it. And sometimes when i find myself upset or pissed off all day due to an odd dream that lasted what seems hours and hours, i think for a second... hmmmm. This is actually so fascinating that this alters my mood so much.. And why? I don't know.. It's only a dream?

It's becoming significant to me.. these signs, symbols, similar places, lengths, times, etc. Everything is remarkable. 

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Lets begin on a positive note, a positive flow

"Fleur"

:),

Today I felt like posting something new, a photo for once. 
I took this out in my front yard of Farmington, MN. 

Fall has most definitely...not sprung.. but..uh, arisen?
Aha, I totally love it though. Favorite time of the year.
And you know, i actually quite like the dreary transition into winter because i always become extra productive for some reason, i love the rain, and of course- Fall fashion!

I can't help but be UN-productive at the moment however due to my addiction to beauty/style gurus on youtube. And Pewdiepie. Have you heard of him? His name is Felix, a swedish gamer who screams like a girl all the time (which i laugh at all the time) and has an adorable girlfriend named Marzia, aka CutiePie. 
GAH can i not stop watching both of them..... :]


So that is why i am horribly unproductive.
I just feel like i have this DREAM of becoming something of myself...someone inspirational.  
All these gurus inspire me! 
They are doing their job.
You can only do your best and try your hardest at things in life, I myself am just afraid i am too casual of a thinker and i believe certain luck and goodness happen to people. Everything happens for a reason :)
I just hope my train of thought smoothens out soon and i realize what i want in life

I am now twenty-two years of age, and i know that may not be very old but i still have this confusion inside of me about almost ABSOLUTELY everything!

Guess that is how humans are... that is how we function. What is life without a bit of confusion? :) We would probably hate or dislike ourselves if we had everything we ever wanted. Its nice to work for things and to achieve a happy and high karma for ourselves. 

Keep doing you everyone, things will be smooth one day for all of us :)

Shannon